2020

Back in 2017, during our last semester of Law School, a friend of mine who's into astrology asked me the details of my birth (like the actual time: hour and minutes) and when I asked her why she simply said I was going to find out. Turns out, she was calculating the day I would get married on some astrology web page. Funny enough, the answer she got was August 2020. That's 5 months from now and ironically, as of now, while I'm typing this, I'm single.

2020 from the start has been a headache. January has news of WWIII all over followed by the COVID-19 epidemic which has now turned to a global pandemic in March. Currently, the Government of India has also announced a 21-Days Lock Down which was pre-headed by a total curfew. I'm not blogging today about the status of this pandemic. The world is ending one way or the other and regardless of what religion you're following, the Apocalypse or The End of Days as we Christians call it, is now. 

What compelled me to blog today after my long haitus is the mere reflection I've had with my life in the past three days, resulting from the lock-down. I am four months away from completing 27 years of my life here. Although I have made mediocre achievements during those years, I haven't achieved anything worthy IMO. I'm not talking about obtaining a Noble Prize here but on the lines of what I have aspired to achieve when I was eight years old kind of achievement. I haven't been able to provide for my family. I've barely provided for myself. I haven't built a house nor have I bought an expensive dress for my mother which is something I should have done when I first got my salary but things just slipped because for the past couple of months I haven't been myself.

There's no excuse as to why I haven't achieved half the things I expected myself to achieve when I was younger. I guess, life didn't turn out the way I expected. But, with that being said, I am living life, I am adulting and it's a shame that I didn't follow my own blue print but that's the beauty of it all- how unexpected everyday is.

After this pandemic, after the virus infection is done with it's peak, when everything calms down, I'll work on those goals. For now, the reflection I have made (and I am sure more are to come) has been eye-opening and I have realized where I have invested my time and efforts along with where I should have invested them instead. 2020 has been a challenge and I have been merely living my days through it. But no more, I will reset my course and sail with a better purpose and better goals.